Everything was calm,
so beautifully chaotic.
Not a mistake, not a fault
could berate my essence
and the chaos that was you,
with it I found my spirit.
Maybe you’ll remember,
that bright October day,
but am I gone from your memory?
I cannot be vanished from your head
because I bet you’re reminded
of our story every time
you lay your eyes on me
just like that October day.
Our story was quick but so detailed,
I remember our first day.
You were standing a few inches away from me
wearing your glassy gray.
The light gray that goes so well
with your moonish eyes;
I could travel a million years,
a million galaxies
with those spacelike eyes.
So, how you came upon us,
my friend and I,
you were nervous, excited
I saw it deep inside.
The redness in your cheeks was well hidden
until you flipped back your hair,
and to me your thoughts revealed.
I shocked you, didn’t I?
With my sunny gestures and doglike smile?
Your presence reminded me of the darkest fire
the dark forest could muster
and your eyes,
the blue was something beyond the grave…
They were wild, almost psychotic.
Those blue eyes belonged beyond the grave,
a God-given gift from heaven.
Hell’s a shabby word for what I went through
before knowing my world without you.
I’d walk up the stairway to Heaven with you,
or the one leading down below.
We could pick flowers from graves
or climb over the golden gate
anything I’d do with you.
All I could do was smile,
and think, this is something else.
Even when my friend wasn’t always there,
I continued to confide in you, your lovely stare.
Like Romeo and Juliet but free,
we travelled far and wide.
And out of all of the fish in the hungry sea,
I wanted it to be you,
you and me.
Suddenly, dear Mia, you held
the key to my heart,
and there was so much to learn,
star crossed lover.
Every color you wore burned my eyes
like I had never seen color before
and I was okay without my eyes.
But time was ticking, like a bomb
it was ticking…
October turned to November;
A different storm we had to weather,
I was okay, we were fine
I loved you more than anything
But Lord knows Romeo and Juliet
had a tragic ending.
Bliss during the performance,
havoc during the night.
There was a sea of faces in the crowd
but I hope you only saw mine.
You neglected what we could have been,
you left me..
That day I stopped you in the hall,
behind my friend, behind my doubt
was the day I felt my life blow up;
it was the end
of something beautiful.
Do you remember that November day?
When I asked if everything between us
The now seemed forced embraces
that you gave me prior
meant nothing then,
what have I done to acquire
your bloody absence in my life?
What did I do wrong, who was to blame?
It’s hard to determine if they hurt the same:
How you’d rather look the other way
or how I cannot look back as you stray?
Oh, forgive me for what I have done
are you at any cost the broken one?
Oh, I know I’ve been hurt before
but you especially leave me so sore.
You were there with your moonish eyes,
and then you vanished, dear Christ
You left me craving, waiting,
so damned famished.
What I’d do for you to forgive me
is what God would do to save his eldest son
from a war
Mia, I’d fight a war…
I guess I’ll have to rely on my sunny eyes
To tell the tale of how you left me
in your lies.
And I guess we were destined to be aloof,
because the sun was always without
and even though they say it died every night
so you could breathe
you never repaid me
so I cried, our storm fading.
The next day because of us
the sun became dimmer
and then the sky suddenly had no room
Please don’t forget me.
With love along with my uttermost deepest regret,